My name is Marius Nemtoc and I live in Galatzi, in Romania. I am 31 years old
and until 10 months ago, to be more exact until 4-th of April 2001, I was a lost
seeker between hundreds of books which dealt with most of the various ways for
getting the same purpose: finding the absolute truth.
Everything started in 1998 when I read a book that was to open
my conscience, a little inner gate through which I could see amazed a glitter (
this amazement hasnít left me until today). To say more exactly, it was a
mixture of joy and light which I had not been aware of until that moment. All
these lasted for three months and all this time I hanged on reading again and
again from this book hopping to experience again the moment of ecstasy which I
felt in the beginning but all was in vain.
The fall was painful. The everyday life overwhelmed me in its
ordinary way, with the mediocrity of the people around me. Nothing could give me
consolation; neither the money, nor the people, nothing. I had become a seeker.
I started to read western philosophy, religion, psychology and
one day I borrowed from the library a book about Buddha. Then I came to know
about yoga, Upanishade , Vede, Brahman, Atman, Samkhya philosophy, reading all
the time as I felt that it was the good direction, but still there was something
that was missing: the meditation.
I bought books written by false gurus who promised the
"sure" way to get the wanted purpose: Samadhi, Enlightenment but all
was in vain. It didnít work.
But letís forget this hopeless seeking and come back two
days before that day (the 4-th of April 2001) when walking down one of the
streets in my town, I saw a Ladyís smiling face on a poster (Her name is SHRI
MATAJI), together with an invitation to a certain hall in order to get Self
Realization through a method called Sahaja Yoga. I went to that hall that very
day and there I met a group of smiling people who recommended me to take out my
shoes before the beginning of the experiment. I didnít do it because of my
western conditioned behavior but this was not an obstacle. A man stood up and
spoke about Sahaja Yoga and explained me about the scheme of the subtle body, he
talked about chakras, about Kundalini, about Sahaja Yoga, about SHRI MATAJI and
added that Her picture gives cool vibrations. Then I did the experiment. When I
finished I was asked if I felt a cool breeze coming out from my hands and above
the fontanel bone area, but there was nothing. On the contrary, my hands had
perspired. I felt them warm and above the head Ė nothing. They encouraged me
and suggested me to check above the head of the person next to me and to my
surprise, I felt a warm breeze coming out. That moment I thought I was far away
from getting the enlightenment because it had not happened anything special as I
expected: explosions of light, Nirvana, the void but I decided to go there once
again, the next week. All this time I did what I was told to do: meditation in
front of SHRI MATAJIís picture ten minutes in the morning and ten minutes in
the evening, with affirmations for my Kundalini.
In a short time I realized that peace was settled inside me,
the thoughts didnít disturb me all the time and I could immediately give up
smoking. This gave me courage, although the distrust continued to persist
because I couldnít agree with the idea that my seeking finally ended, that I
had found the answer in an ordinary place, in my town and there wasnít
necessary to accomplish my great plans of going in Shri Lanka to become a
sanyasi and to meditate in front of a wall for years like Bodhidharma.
I continued in this way and the weekly meetings became almost
daily ones, my individualism started to disappear by joining the collectivity
and now, although I am aware of the fact that still there is a lot of work to
do, I know that indeed I was given the enlightenment and all I have to do is to
raise step by step being helped by the protection, compassion and love given to
all of us by our Mother SHRI MATAJI NIRMALA DEVI.
JAY SHRI MATAJI !